When I met HER again.
I was sad and I was alone. I know I was dying and suffering. At the same time I was intending to expedite the process of dying to end up my miseries. I was horrified with the kind of situation I was in. I was actually thinking of suicide. I believed I was a fighter but I came to realize that there is threshold for everything. Everything has a melting point. I was devastated. I was afraid with the idea of having no tomorrow. I was thinking that if I take that bold step, then probably this will be my last day. If there would be only one day left to exist. What would I do if there would be!! Well, it is quite evident that whole concept of tomorrow is a myth. There was never a tomorrow. It always stayed in philosophy. May be for procrastinator, it is a favorite place to dwell into but it never existed. Tomorrow is like Heisenberg cat experiment, so the moment you see it, it has become today. So even scientifically it is a paradox. All these thinking could not give me power