Are you who you were a year ago ?





Losing something always hurts you to bottom core of your heart. Its not human nature to accept the loss humanely and it feels even more tormenting where you start losing "someone" rather than "something". It’s terrible, distressing and harrowing. Hence it is even more difficult to see someone you love slipping out of your hands not knowing why they are doing so. Just a few months back things were amazing, as amazing as you ever imagined them to be, but what now?

A basket full of memories that you can cherish for life? Promises for being there and then disappearing the next moment. A few amazing months that when you look back at them you can’t help but smile. It’s hard when you never know why things ended the way they did or did they?

Yet again its human nature to blame the circumstances for every situation they are in. But out of all, there are many which are fixable. You just need heart to solve it. It is not calculus. It is life and hence it is simple. Then why did you just decide to abruptly end our nameless relationship?

Perhaps people do change, as the stream of life curls into a wider arc but is it easy to rupture the meraj of people who said they loved you? Or at least that what you thought they meant when they said they would be by your side. As I said, people change and so their priorities, but is it painless for us to understand or believe that the one person who loved you from the bottom of their heart (or at least you believed that they did) could actually change their priorities? Maybe we just have to understand that change is inevitable and accept what it is.

Perhaps we were meant to be, not the way I thought but in a more conventional way, we are meant to be strangers, lovers and strangers again. Some people come into your life only to teach you how to live alone. We don't always get what we want - maybe because it’s not meant to be? Then, what is actually meant to be? It’s true that we learn things the hard way, but this was too hard.

After all, people change don’t they?

Courtesy
The Mahapurush


Comments

  1. Unknown12 October 2017 at 11:20

    Nothing is permanent. Sometimes people come to give you a experience (which you can't forget ever). People make decisions in haste and then regret later. You are not at a loss but the other person is.
    Keep your heart pure.
    I wonder if we could have mock tests where one decision making about life. It is the toughest section to attempt. (not in your control ).

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